I looked at the sky,
The Sun was bright;
I asked for his help
To care for my knight;
Who lives far away,
Away from my sight;
But down went the sun
And there came the night.
I am insane, because I have been sane for too long,
I am bad, because I have been good for too long,
I am loose, because I have been perfect for too long,
I am careless, because I have been cautious for too long,
I am strong, because I have been weak for too long,
I am happy, because I have been sad for too long,
I am smiling, because I have been in tears for too long,
I am flirty, because I have been true for too long,
I am unapologetic, because I have been sacrificial for too long,
I am social, because I have been lonely for too long,
And “too long” is the time when I was with you!
Deceit wore the mask of love,
This hardly did I know;
I often got deceived by lovers
Whose pretence took off the show.
They vowed to keep it safe, my heart-
The innocent of its kind;
I failed to notice their deception art,
Its perfection got me blind.
They asked for heart, I gave my soul,
Every breath I breathed for them,
They played with it, and proved me fool,
For my folly they condemned.
I reached out my hand to make demand
Of my heart which once I gave;
They thrusted with force my bleeding heart,
And made me know them knave.
Once so pure and kind and fine –
My heart that used to be,
Is now pierced with thousand needles
By those who wanted me.
I hold my bleeding heart in hand;
Dumbstruck, numb and terrified,
With utter force the blood gush forth
I know not if it died.
But many wait in queue to play –
Their motive now I see;
Oh! Not again shall I offer love,
I’ll keep my heart with me.
O how I wish
You came out of my fantasy
And loved me for real
Whispering love in my ears
And watching me turn away
My face with shyness,
Then you bringing your hand upon my chin
And bringing me closer to you
Your thumb near my lips
Then with a smile on your lips,
Coming closer to mine,
Kissing me on my cheek
And hugging me tight
Like it is forever!
Aching ‘pon the cruel face,
Raised up by our fallen race,
Craving for a minute grace,
I beg be cared though not be praised.
I often cry with bleeding tears
That which fall on unhearing ears,
I pound with utter pain and cry,
They see me die yet ask not why.
They push me down and hit me hard,
Hurt my soul, wound my heart,
Rape my body, tear me ‘part,
Kill my dreams and make me tart.
Regard me low, curb my growth,
Hold my tongue, glue my mouth,
Gag my throat, gasp my breath,
I give in and gulp my wrath.
Thrust me with laws, force to abide,
Thrash me with weapons and turn on me wild,
Ask me to walk slow, follow a man,
My only big sin is I am a woman.
Days seem hasty,
Nights are weary,
Mornings, though fresh,
Find us gloomy,
Glued to our beds –
Not wanting to wake,
In peaceful sleep,
Away from worries
On the pleasant moon.
World awaiting our duties
To be performed
Yet, with smiles,
The world we dream of buying through struggles
Has only struggles when looked back.
Leaving behind happiness, family, friends, lover
And of course our age!!!
I woke up today,
High in spirit,
With colourful dreams
Of working great,
Different from all days
Like lending helping hands
In household chores,
Trying my hand
In cooking food,
Read some books,
Cover all stories of the newspaper,
Complete the crosswords,
Dance like a lunatic,
Sing like a well-trained,
Pray with utmost devotion,
Praying for one and all
And many more to go.
But all I did today was just
Breathe, breathe and breathe;
I thought i needed a break
And so today –
Oh! It was just another day!